I will wait for you by Janette P4CM

So it seemed, that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me..
So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF
So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?

I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was ME who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”..
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!

I was gonna make him ‘The One’..
You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..

A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!
So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..

But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me

Arteries so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flat lined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,

Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
TO transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!
So now I fully understand,

Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I NEED to wait… for You.
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning was the Word

And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.

He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You.. ?

You were already praying for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will wait for you.
I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you

To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention
And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.

I, I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ?”all I gotta do is Say” No!

NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!?
Who flirts with the ideology of,
Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’
NO more.

I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you :)
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.

I will no longer get weighted down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is NOT subject to time,

But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…
So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer

I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.

We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son..

I would gain energy simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ?

And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.

But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,

Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.
But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit…
I desire Your will above mine,

So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business

Oh, I will always be Yours!
And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…
More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ?

 

Truth

As am sitting here, my heart is in a state of steam.
Wondering and reflecting on all the beautiful things i dream.
If i ever need people, baby it is with you that i want to build my team.
Because if i got you, then it does not matter if the world is so mean.

I have never met you, but our souls have met before.
Long before our path ever cross, our story was written in gold.
Eventhough somethings bite now, i know with you it would all be right.
Because when the rain come to the ground, the fruit can only grow and bear fruit.

I can’t wait for us to team up.
Dearest it is time to win.
Just as we are destined to.
It is only when we are one.
That the victory would be complete.

Dearest, there is no mystery.
We are making history.
The truth is so real.
The truth is so sweet.
The truth is what i want to say.
The truth is that i love you.

Written by: Mfon Ekene

To my mystery man..cont.

Babe,

Someone very close to me is about to tie the knot
and yet, am trying so hard to not think about you.
I don’t want you to steal her spotlight.
It is her time.

Our time is coming soon,
I want it to tarry a little tho.
Cos I have some growing up
to do.
Am still a baby Christian
tossed to and fro by every wind of doctrine.
It is not a good thing to say.
However, it is the truth.

I praise God for allowing this time
for me to grow up spiritually,
you don’t want a girl to sap every anointing out
of you?
No, I don’t want to do that to you, Babe!

We are God’s gift to each other,
that’s why I want to be complete in Christ,
before we meet each other.
I don’t want to be a problem,
I don’t want to hurt you.

I’ll be your first supporter
after God.
I want to do you good all
the days of my life.
I can’t do that if am a baby in
my relationship with God.

Am growing in love with Christ,
Cos that’s the glue that will hold
us together.

Babe, I will wait for u!

*Love*
Your heart throb!

Relationship

“Some are seeking a relationship, instead of seeking the Lord. Loneliness is pushing them to seek in places where they are only going to find the wrong person, and ultimately get hurt. Remember, you are the temple of the living God, and there are places where your feet should not take you, and relationships that should never start.” (pjimgallagher.wordpress.com)

4SingleLadies

NEVER do this:

1. Initiate conversations
It takes courage to talk to a girl. Most ladies want someone courageous or bold, allowing the guy to take that first bold step will let you know if you are dealing with a wimp or not. Nobody wants to be with a wimp. Trust me, courage is an attractive quality. If you keep helping him by initiating conversations, you will never know how serious he is about you. A guy that is serious about you will overcome his fears and pursue. If he doesn’t initiate conversations, don’t help him at all.

From experience, initiating conversation didn’t help him overcome the demons of his past. Most of time, the reason a guy doesn’t initiate first is cos of their past. The only person that can aid him overcome his past is him. If he really likes you, but never comes out to say that’s his loss and problem. Again, he has to overcome whatever is holding him back by himself. Honestly, you don’t want to be fighting the demons of his past with him, so let him handle that and get that settled b/f he pursues you.

I know what you’re thinking what if he is really shy?? Well, cute shyness is attractive but  shyness that impairs your ability to function is not attractive at all. If he is not courageous enough to initiate the first moves, let him go!! A wimp chickens out. A courageous person takes risk, now that’s attractive.

2. Lower your Standards:
A guy that loves you will appreciate you and all. If you have to lower anything, he is probably not for you. The person for you will respect your boundaries and do anything to protect you. Know your identity to the point that you don’t need him to feel complete. Let him know your standards and boundaries from the very beginning and consequences, if he breeches your boundaries. Uphold your standards. A good guy wants a girl with high standards. The guy that wants you to lower your standards just wants to sleep with you (sucks!). So what are your standards?

3. Sleep with a guy to show love
Ladies, educate yourselves! You can tell a guy in other ways you love him without sleeping with him. I hate when guys use the line “if you really love, you’d sleep with me,” I can’t stand it. Sex is meant for marriage. The best way you can protect yourself in having sex is in marriage or abstinence. Sex is the highest level of intimacy b/w a man and woman. A guy that wants to sleep with you outside the institution of marriage, you need to raise your eyebrows. Society has taught us that sex with boyfriend and girlfriend is ok and no, it is not. Family is the building block of society. Sex is not taken seriously anymore that’s why we have so many single parents and broken kids all over society. The best expression of love through sex is within an institute of marriage. Protect your future kids and yourself by being wise when you have sex.

4. Fight for a guy
A man is suppose to fight for you. It is not your place to fight for him. Fighting another girl for your guy is kinda low. That’s how you know that the guy is really into you by fighting for you. Fighting for a guy seems kinda desperate. Desperate girls do crazy. Don’t be desperate.

5. Change yourself for a guy
It is not worth it. The guy for you will appreciate everything about you. He can influence you positively, no problem. If he starts comparing you to another girl to be like so and so, we have a problem.

The counterfeit..

His heart craves for love so bad
but his actions yields selfishness..
A selfish heart is not capable of Love.
Love is antagonist to Selfishness.
Am concerned that his selfish heart
will only lead him to the very thing he fears
HURT.
This 4-letter word guides his steps.

He is every Christian woman’s nightmare,
His words is sweet and very convincing..
However, the detects of his heart
is far from the truth.

He wears a mask to portray the original.
He will tell you what you want to hear,
and probably the same thing he is telling
other girls.

How to recognize the counterfeit:

1. He doesn’t have an intimate relationship with God: Being with him wouldn’t strengthen your relationship with God.

2. He hurt you in the past: Love shouldn’t hurt. Hurt is inspired by selfishness. Selfishness is inspired by fear. In the presence of Fear, Love can’t Strive. I John 4:18-Perfect Love cast out all fears.

3. He constantly compares you to another. 2 Cor. 10:12- to one to another is not wise.

4. He lies to you..
if you’re honest with him. It’s a clear sign of immaturity and lack of responsibility.
This is so
disrespectful (you deserve better).
A guy that will lie to you will play you.
Players lie.
Make sure, you have
substantial evidence (don’t assume)

5. He left you to talk to another..
Guys that do this are subconsciously telling you,
you don’t have all the qualities I want. When a man finds his rib, he will
stop searching. Except, he purposely wants to play every female.

6. He flirts with other girls in front of your face: This act is very immature and a clear sign that probably the reason he is with you might also be very superficial. The man for you will not disrespect you. If he does this.. It’s a clear sign he has his eyes
for other girls.

Best way to handle moving on from a counterfeit:

1. Pray for them-(ex..salvation, future) pray for good things for them.
It might hurt cos they hurt you but trust me,
it is the best way to handle evil. Overcome evil with good.

2. Cut them completely off.. No msg, txting, fb..
You can’t move on when you’re constantly in contact.

3. Meditate on Christ’s love for you.

4. Busy yourself by helping others.

5. Every time you think about him or her,
speak out LOud: God loves me or
I am complete in Christ.

6. Remember, this person had to get out of
your life, so that you can refocus your attention
on God.

7. Pray for your future spouse, but don’t idolize the idea of meeting your future spouse that you forget about your relationship with God.

8. Read a book about Waiting till God’s time.

9. Trust God’s plan for your life- Jeremiah 29:11

10. Forgive the counterfeit..

11. Don’t rehearse the old conversations.

Remember, the joy you will feel with your Spouse
will override the pain you feel now.

It is our duty to be on the look out for the counterfeits..
Trust me, the original is so WORTH the WAIT.

BE PATIENT.

Upgrade your Man Survey!!

Every lady deserves her best

Questions:

1. Does your man beat you? YES or NO
2. Does you man verbally bring you down? Yes or No
3. Is your man lazy? Yes or No
4. Has your man cheated? Yes or No

If you answered yes to any of those questions, Yes girl, YOU need an UPGRADE! Except your married, answering yes to question 2 and 3 means you need counseling..

If you’re married and answered “Yes” to the first question. Red Alert: Immediately, You need to get help. Living with an abusive man is a slow kill. You need to reach out to anyone that will listen: Please RUN and get help.

To my Christain ladies:

1. Does your man have an intimate relationship with God? YES or NO
2. Does your man put you before God? Yes or No
3. Does your man push you to compromise your standards? Yes or No
4. Does your man respect your boundaries? Yes or No
5. Does your man accept you just the way you’re? Yes or No
6. Are you attracted to this man? Yes or No
7. Are the feelings mutual? Yes or No

If you answered more than two “NO”.. You need an Upgrade. Especially for number 1. If he doesn’t have a relationship with God, that’s a problem. We can’t be unequally yoked. Remember two can’t work together except they agree.

“love should spur you with the feeling like you can conquer the world”

You deserve a man that loves you unconditionally..
One that doesn’t compare you to the rest.
One that reminds you that you’re his best.
One that gives you heart security.
What is Heart security?
Heart security is when you’re at peace that he loves you
and he wouldn’t just leave u for another.

You deserve a man that
…fights you..
… put you second after God.
…is willing to do anything for you

Love is a gift.
Ladies, we doesn’t need to fight for Love.
God will give us our gift at the right now.

You deserve the man of your dreams.
To keep the man of your dreams..
You have to work on yourself,
so, when he arrives,
you wouldn’t chase him away.

Every lady deserve Her Best.
Never settle..
Upgrade your man today..